I get so sad when guys here believe this redpill bullshit and make themselves feel worse then they are when theyre...

That's nice of you, OP. I hope you get a nice insecure bullied bf whose life is turned around by you improving his self-esteem.

the only thing you need to do to 'save' me is be my wife, sex 4 times a day, play vidya with me and love me forever.
am i asking for the moon here

how theyre slenderman

People in HS would always call me an Enderman

Can't escape this shit man

Ok thank you for the kind words. What did you do to help anons from porn addiction? And how do I meet girls irl that do not care as much about height or other superficial things?
You guys can most other women anyway.

that is so kind! thank you so much. same goes for you youll wed a lucky woman. I think a place like this needs people like us, just show people theres always an other side to things. even if they dont want to be helped, sometimes hearing another perspective helps, and when it accumulates it can help them change even.
haha thank you although it doesnt have to be a bf nor does he have to be turned on, id be happy knowing I helped someone at least.
no youre not anon and im sure youll find someone like that. I dont think many of us are wanting something diffrerent it just sucks that were not a close knit friend group that live close cause if that was the case it would be a massive orgy.
anyway, im sure youll find the right one. I mean if that was the case and although I agree the dating space is ruined by social media and dating apps I believe I will find someone that agrees with me on this, disagrees w me on the others and we reach a consensus that makes both of us happy without fighting. nothing is too much to ask unless its just trolling. because I believe true love means youll get what you asked for and even they'll try to make you happier by trying to do what you love as well (example because I think I worded that retardedly) like a non gamer wife trying to get into games, and the husband starting with easy party games so she doesnt feel discouraged. that sounds so cute! I love romance!
LOL! enderman
I used to post nudes when people asked. /shrug
i dont know. I cant meet those types of girls much either. not even online xD I think I suck at friendships. becoming friends with men are easy because you can just bond over playing a game when with non-gamer girls you have to make eye contact and find a subject thats not turning someone off (ive been told to shut up when I talked about my interests). these stuff can get discouraging but it doesnt mean ill stop trying.

I rarely even use porn anymore. I am perfectly fine of cumming to one girl who will be mine.

I used to post nudes when people asked. /shrug

can you do that again? or on discord privately?
where you from anyway

You guys can most other women anyway

I would be able to but apparently im ugly as shit.

My sister saw a picture of me and legit straight up said I was uglier than fuck and looked old.

Some girls i befriended admitted to me being tall was cool but i was too ugly for them.

I should have known this because when i jestermaxxed in highschool i would do these scary faces that people genuinely found scary but i was too retarded to put two and two together.

I used to post nudes when people asked. /shrug

How was that supposed to help anons out of porn addiction?
What happened to those male friendships? Are you still friends with some men from here?

but I sometimes think you wont give non-normie non-stacy girls a chance either.

What if I told you that I have "given her a chance"?
I'm not an interesting person to talk to over the interwebs, and so she inevitably drifts away.
Now granted, that was online, and I don't blame her.
Online "relationships" will never happen for me.
Finding non stacy non normie women irl is hard.
I'm content to be forever alone.

Stop trying to save these men, you are like the woman version of a fembot apologist. Just get yourself a chad like a normal woman and be done with it instead of going around trying to fix incels

meh its complicated. I dont really want to.
I believe since it isnt an artificially bleached vagina with a 10/10 woman that doesnt exist in real life it would make people more accustomed to normal women and not be stacysexual and porn generally involves human trafficking so its bad to consume it as it creates more demand. I mean I dont think I will end this by myself xD but the most of it is I think its very disgusting for these and many other reasons and I fap by closing my eyes and imagining. I also started to get off to the fact that a lot of people found me hot so thats why I continued xD
and yes ive been friends with a lot of people for years.
i dont know what to tell you anon. I know theres always second chances though.
I mean I gave up already, I just wanted to talk about it. I still have these thoughts but coming here everyday and being an egirl is really damaging which I am still working on you know?
but no I will never date someone cause theyre a "chad". I hate people that date someone for superficial reasons like appearence. personality ftw

meh its complicated. I dont really want to.

guys in the past got nudes for free

when i ask it's 'complicated'

you probably still give them to the people you're in contact with...
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you know you can go look at them on archives right..? just type cewl and youll see xD

fuck off retarded foid. You think you are so much better than us that you can give us valuable advice. You should first get together your own life, go out and explore the world.
I went without watching porn from 15 to 26 and without fapping from 18 to 22 and 24 to 26 until i decided to watch again just for general entertainment purposes.
After I lost my virginity at 25 it was only a question of time until I would start watching porn again. Quite ironically one thing that made me watch porn again is the conservative anti-porn youtube bitch who talks about all these poor teen girls lol.

why though? why dont you want to be better?

I don't see anything wrong with me. Ackshually, I don't like the self loathing and I want to fix that. Everything else that women or other men see as a problem with me is not a problem to me.

i dont like ldrs anymore either since I tried it and they all are ass.

Inherently I see nothing wrong with them. I just think most are doomed to fail as they require 2 people who actually like each other, not just together to not be lonely, who are willing to communicate truthfully and openly, and are actually ready for the commitment. In most cases, neither men or women try enough in LDRs because they simply don't care enough.
Between dying alone and spending years talking to slowy getting to know someone, to love and cherish her before seeing her. I know what my choice would be if I had one.

I get that when youre depressed you dont even want to eat as ive been through

Haha yeah.

why refuse professional help and such

I simply don't think it'll help. I can't talk about everything to begin with. My life sucks enough without me having been involuntarily admitted to a psych ward.

even believing someone on here when theyre thinking for your sake?

You don't know me. I believe you would hate me if you knew me, just as everyone else hates me. Everyone who has every said they cared me lied about caring about me, lied about loving me, I don't see any reason why anyone would be any different. I believe you care about me in that I'm kind of venting in your thread and perhaps you feel bad reading what I have to say but I don't see that as actually thinking for my sake.

most r9k guys don't even like professional porn in the first place. hentai and amateur stuff is more popular

porn is good though, it's unironically made me love and respect women more than i would otherwise. now i see women as having a purpose beyond being maids

I get so sad when guys here believe this redpill bullshit

I've lived it. You mean to tell me the women in my life, when being absolute witches, weren't being witches?

I believe since it isnt an artificially bleached vagina with a 10/10 woman that doesnt exist in real life it would make people more accustomed to normal women and not be stacysexual

Most porn isn't like this at all though.

but I sometimes think you wont give non-normie non-stacy girls a chance either.

If you aren't a walking nightmare, you'd be 1 in a million. And even if I got you, I'm to messed up to be good for you.

i dont get it.

I know you don't. That's because you're female.

ive met a lot of mean women and men, but ive met those out there that are nice too.

You've never had to try to be in a relationship with a female or try to build a life with a female.

how is this any different than saying all men are rapist?

The difference is not all men are rapists. But all women really are bad. They are chronically evil mental children, even the "nice" ones. There just is no equality or unity there, they're useless.

Everything else that women or other men see as a problem with me is not a problem to me.

I get it. it's mostly societal conformation shit anyway. I had to learn and apply a lot of that stuff myself and even needed help with doctors as a kid. but it makes me want to do it because I dont want to be so lonely as I feel alone in my own body even.

ldr

yeah exactly. its really difficult

help

but why dont you try? you have nothing to lose right. it just makes me feel better to know that a lot of things I suffer with is common enough to get a name and im not alone in this. after sticking through, I learned a lot of things to not give in to the dark thoughts and do not do the things that are worse for me. I also learned how to be a better person (according to society) and got a lot of tools to make friends. I have online ones now at least.
I believe everyone hates me too. more like, they dont even hate me because I dont think anyone cares about me enough to hate me. im just there. I am not important to anyone. at times like these my relationship with my family help me a lot. I mean yeah if thinking for your sake works and make you feel better then I did what I wanted which made me happy which is inherently selfish like all things in life. but it doesnt mean selfish things cant help other people. I believe even hearing someone out and listening to them is helpful too. not as much as therapy maybe, but one day it will all pile up and make you at least a bit happier.
fuck if I know xD I dont like any type of it. not so much hentai though as it doesnt show itself as realistic from the start anyway
im saying that there are those who arent witches. like there are men that arent rapists. ive grown to learn that so I hope other people do too.
I havent seen a lot of porn. but I dont like any kind anyways

I like to believe I am not 1 in a million. I get that most girls arent like me and I equate that to Aspergers, and I know a lot of girls have Aspergers too, but retarded twitter whores that self diagnose and who are actually bpdemons put a bad name to it :/
the only time I tried to flirt with people irl are with females. they can be brutal I know xD doesnt mean I wont meet someone that isnt. I mean I dont think im bad or evil. I dont think my mom is. if really all other women are like this there wouldnt be marriage like this. Id like to not believe you.

I havent seen a lot of porn. but I dont like any kind anyways

What you are doing is literally porn lol. There is little difference aside from you not being fucked.

but retarded twitter whores that self diagnose and who are actually bpdemons put a bad name to it :/

As a fellow ass burger, I can agree to this understand. The biggest issue, imo, with normals is that they are very vengeful. And there is a lot of normals out there. I myself have fallen to normals mad thought structures too. A "normal" male is only capable of seeing women as a monolith, and therefore says all. It's the sand for "normal" women. What is truly comes down for me is, what is the likelihood I'll find success in the state in in now, and in the star when I'm at my max? And to me the ratio off effort is none linear.

It's the sand for "normal"

Same*

There is no way for you to fix everyone. You could be temporary bandaid by being everyone slut, but that won't fix original problem and wouldn't happen anyway because we're scattered across the globe here. You can save only one guy by giving him family he never had.

sometimes think you wont give non-normie non-stacy girls a chance either

I would but at the same time I still have some things I won't accept like being fat. If you're really cewl then I saw your pics and found you qt. Even exchanged emails but at some point you stopped replying.

Wow fuck auto correct. That was to many errors..

I guess they can fap to 1 person porn then lel
exactly. this is the reason I dont think I could spend my life with a normie, and it is so hard to explain my thoughts to anyone anyway, cant imagine to a partner.
I like to think the one will love you in both of your states.
youre right desu but being here it feels so bad I cant help, so I try.
oh! i checked my email the other day. I like to think I replied to everyone regardless of how late I was. if I didnt can you send me another one? mustve not seen it. and to be sure it is the email that starts with p and ends with a 2 correct?

You would still be disgusted by an autistic man, all women are and even if you claim online you are not irl you would still never ever given autistic man a chance. Meanwhile NT get 1000s of chances. I have talked with women, real women and they all ghosted me because I gave them the ick with autism. You can't come with some bs platitude here because I know how it really is from real experience. I am not ugly or anything this is why this women even talked with me in the first place.

i am autistic and have been around a lot of autistic men as I used to go to doctor for childhood therapy to "behave normally". I hope you can set aside your misconceptions and prejudice one day. and I believe one day youll meet someone that will talk to you regardless of your behavior. just dont be afraid to be the one to talk first as society expects men to take the first action.

I don't have any "misconceptions" or prejudice" I always treat them like I want to be treated but time and time again they treat me like trash, like am worth nothing simply for the fact that I have autism.

just dont be afraid to be the one to talk first as society expects men to take the first action.

I know that I am not stupid just autistic but this is just a fairy tale you are trying to sell me here.

I like to think the one will love you in both of your states.

For men, in general, it does not seem to be real like this. Maybe that means it's not real love (I doubt a lot of people are acutely in love in today's world), but i have taken on this. Simply because I see that no one else holds up the world around me, and so it must be me.

youre right desu but being here it feels so bad I cant help, so I try.

It's fine. Even though it's not much, such gestures still are nice. Are you going to continue? And if so, how?

and to be sure it is the email that starts with p and ends with a 2 correct?

Yeah. Just checked it and it turns out you really did reply almost week ago. Back then when we were exchanging emails I was checking it daily, but once you stopped replying I returned to checking it like once a month or so like I have in habit when I don't expect anything.
So are you going to drop Nikki entirely or stick to see if it'll be saved, or just play with lower expectations? Personally I had little time to play so I kind of dropped it in favor of other games I had more sentiment for. As for your question regarding life, I'd have to think. Even though I have kind of stagnant life, bunch of stuff happened but I'd have to think what is worth sharing and what isn't. Want me to write up e-mail about that or seeing how e-mails aren't the best for keeping up, move it somewhere else?

but why dont you try? you have nothing to lose right

I plan on talking to someone to fix the self loathing but I think that's unfixable and at best I'll learn to manage it. For everything else, not a problem and/or they'll report me and I'll get redflagged.

after sticking through, I learned a lot of things to not give in to the dark thoughts and do not do the things that are worse for me

Good, maybe it'll help me out a bit in that regard.

got a lot tools to make friends

I have friends unfortunately.

online ones now at least

My online friends are closer to real friends to me because they know me better than my irl friends and don't judge me for anything (besides banter) whereas my irl friends (and family) would judge me a lot. I just don't really like people, especially IRL, and I'm a friend as far as they're a friend to me. Meaning if they never talked to me again I'd never talk to them and I don't really see a problem with that.

at times like these my relationship with my family help me a lot

I think my family hates me more than anyone else desu.

I believe even hearing someone out and listening to them is helpful too

I agree. I think discussion like this is healthy and I feel a little better having typed some of my thoughts out.

to be honest I tend to feel like that too. its either "oh everyone has a bit of the tism" or making jokes and noone acknowledges it for real the off chance I tell someone. I guess im lucky because being a girl it is easier to be accepted at least but I never seen that happen to me yet. it may be a fairy tale but it is what I want to believe, as otherwise I would kill myself, as ive tried but failed, but im trying to be better.
I agree with you, but I just like to believe this is the case. like I said just now that would be brutal and would just cut any chance I have if I do have any.
im trying bit by bit with posts like these, trying to convince people to get therapy etc. although I have stopped posting nudes as it was damaging for me as much fun it was (?grammar retard)
why do you say unfortunately? its amazing to have friends that are truly close! sadly I have only find connection like that with junkies, which have turned on me after I stopped using which says a lot. but I still miss it for that reason.
same with me on the online vs irl friends case. really awful. I hate normies so much it's unbelievable, but I dont act hateful towards them, it's just internal.
im sorry about your family I hope you rekindle your relationship with them
thats great anon, im really happy I couldve helped.

Does your owner know that you can type

LOL. I needed that laugh anon.
myes, I love posting my faggot self with one testicle on the inter webs.

On height, my mum is 60+ and talks shit about short men, as have many colleagues of varying age (i worked exclusively with women for 5 years)
The height thing is a bit exaggerated at times but it is very real, altough its something that gets worse the shorter you get. 5'7? Probably salvageable. 5'2? 99% over.

trying to convince people to get therapy etc

Most therapies are meme though. There are proper therapies like exposure ones that aim at making you accustomed to stuff you have trouble with by dosing them bit by bit, and there are meme "therapies" where people just talk and don't even get close to source of problem, which is bascally scam.

I have stopped posting nudes as it was damaging for me as much fun it was

How was it damaging? And what made it fun?

why do you say unfortunately?

What? I think you meant to reply to someone else with this. And you missed question about whether you'd like me to continue our email convos.

oh yeah its real for sure. I just think women that think otherwise exist, and I want people to know that superficial people like that arent worth any time anyways.

I tried by trying to get you guys not be so addicted to porn anymore

OP is a baiting faggot but retards actually believe that not watching porn and getting with uglier women will make these women equally chaste or get them to have sex with you regularly or be loyal etc. delusional retards.

were not redpillers, were blackpillers

I've thought of this multiple times but it always ends with remembering none of these women will stick with just one dick. It's a nice idea but if you refuse to watch porn for the sake of a good female partner that doesn't exist you'll just be left alone and even more frustrated for the effort. The world and these women are dead husks.

would be brutal

Thus is life, the bliss of sex, and the horror of violence are two sides of the same coin called life. And for a sperg, we are both blessed and cursed to see it. Though we are the inheriters of sanity, and we are who passes sanity to the next generations, we either see it, or close our eyes.

life is a comedy

Maybe it'd be worthwhile to collectivise or something.

I used to do that but after a while I just thought, I'm going to die alone anyway. Who am I doing this for?

Be patient anon, to redditors incel, redpill and blackpill are all the same.

If all women were like you, I wouldn't be a blackpilled miserable chud. You have a good heart, assuming you actually mean this stuff and aren't just fishing for compliments from the lonely men beneath you

I sometimes think you wont give non-normie non-stacy girls a chance either.

I'd fall for any woman that was nice to me. The "incels only want stacy!" rhetoric is often not true, they'll take any woman that gives them a chance as they're terminally lonely and isolated.

Yeah you would be doing it for something that's not true and doesn't matter

yes I believe most therapists are memes as well. but maybe because I was really bad I got a lot of benefit from it. I hope other people do as well. you cant know unless you try and try and try. ive had to go to a lot of therapists before I found one that I actually thought that understood me and I am better after it. it was damaging for my self-impression as I only valued myself as a sexual object as I thought I couldnt entertain people in other ways, and an obsessive stalker. what made it fun was obvious, a lot of compliments, knowing I could make people cum etc, getting sexual attention for the first time was really euphoric.
oh I thought I did reply. I talked about how I checked It recently and replied to everyone, thinking maybe it fell into spam or sth? I must've mixed up replies sorry this thread is popping off lol. Is it the email with p at the start and 2 at the end? if so you can email me again, I mean you can anytime in fact.
youre right but making me very depressed anon. I used to think this every second until I started keeping myself busy and sharing those things with people here are making me happy. we can accept the facts but thinking about it 24 7 will make you suicidal like it did to me. so keep yourself busy anon, its important
lmao, its all bullshit, I dont care what you tag your made up retardation just like Neo pronouns and other stuff.
i am not fishing for compliments although I am posting about this to make myself feel better by making other feel better. I said before I think everything is inherently selfish at its core but it can benefit other people.
I hope it isnt true like you say, but seeing it often makes me feel discouraged.

i think its a troon or a fag making a bait post

lmao i have posted my feline before and I have said my nickname on the thread. sucks to suck retard :P

Theres only one thing I need your help with. What is your asl?

22, female and shithole. I am not from here thankfully xD just here to study but I will move to Europe for masters

I will move to Europe for masters

what country? come to mine and you can cook and clean for me :)

id rather have a malewife that cooks and cleans for me while I am the breadwinner. no thank you. good luck

Yes you are a woman so you can't understand my struggle at all. For you all doors are open even with it the autism because men don't care that much about it. I have studied that a bit and I know why women are like this, it is just that it is very bleak to know that nothing I do can change that, other than masking 24/7 but I can't do that and don't want with a potential partner. At least you are honest and see that there is nothing I can do instead of trying to make up some bs, so I give you that.

You say that, but I know if I ask you the height of you boyfriend you won't tell me (because surprise surprise: he's >6').

Not sure how you're gonna help me then

im sorry for existing I guess. but I want you to know I dont have it much better.
jesus bro, I dont even have one xD
I cant, sorry.

uh uh so youre just a whore that seeks attention and is a pick me grifter
imagine taking pride in posting your genitals on Anon Babble, disgusting

youre right but making me very depressed anon

Do understand, you have more than enough strength to carry on, I know it. And you are very right, staying busy keeps us from madness. I know you can find the sweet love you need. Don't forget either that depression has its other side too. The bliss of joy and love, never forget it ok?

sorry

Doubt you are

i dont believe that is the case. ive made it clear what I think about NORMIE women, and I would still date a normie woman when it comes to it if I had the chance, and I dont do those stuff anymore. if you actually read anything or knew me you would understand. nonetheless, I was just being playful when youre belittling me even though I made this thread for help youre making it clear you cant be helped. some of you will still hurt people even though I only have good intentions, which hurts, but I just move on and have to understand that I cant help everyone.
thank you anon. yeah, thats what I work hard for. thank god if it exists I have a mother because I would be dead if she hadn't been there for me through everything.

Not sure why you think I hate you or you are trying to apologize. You have it 100x times better than me. You could get a bf in even just this thread alone, not talking about his quality and a good one in around a month if you really tried. Meanwhile I can't do the same with a gf, so stop the pity comparison that won't work.

disgusting

Haha.what a queer

I mean yeah I could be in an unhappy relationship easier than you, as you could pay for someone to be your girlfriend as well. but that doesnt make sense does it? in the case of real love, I do believe its about likely we have similar chances, but maybe I could have it easier that I get more chances than you. not that ive ever had someone try to get with me irl though xD

id rather have a malewife that cooks and cleans for me

she thinks this is a reasonable thing to request in europe

you're gonna have a cold fking shower when you land and talk to people. phew

I sometimes think you wont give non-normie non-stacy girls a chance either

dare you to date me. oh wait, you won't.
case closed

i didnt say i hated pussy, i said i hate pussy being posted online because its degenerate
imagine your girl used to post her pussy online for the whole world to see
stop confusing being a degenerate for being 'based', redpillers are not traditional
youre just sex-obsessed freaks that love prostitution and degeneracy like sodom and gommorah
imagine your mom posts a pic of her pussy right now

I found one that I actually thought that understood me and I am better after it

Was it recently?

it was damaging for my self-impression as I only valued myself as a sexual object as I thought I couldnt entertain people in other ways

How so? I remember you streaming so you could entertain people in other ways.

getting sexual attention for the first time was really euphoric.

It isn't now? Or you realized that such compliments and attention from coomers who give it out to everyone is simply worthless?
And yes, you did reply. I told you here What I asked is whether you actually want to hear how was life, as you asked in email, and whether you want to continue messaging, either through email or something else.

what do you mean?
I rather not have online relationships, and I dont even know you.

what do you mean?

i can't explain it to you, you're just gonna have to experience life here for yourself

Just look at any statistics about autistic women and men. Autistic women fair far better than their male counterparts.

comparing a relationship to prostitution

Okay I am done with you.

ive recently stopped seeing her in January I believe.
yeah but it was about 2 years later I started doing all that. I want to stream again but im so stuck with classees and shit.
i dont think it is worthless, I still find myself indulging in it from time to time, like being promiscuous on chans I mean, but I feel that hearing that stuff every day made me think that way.
oooh. yes I would like to email. alternatively I have a discord again but I check it rarely since I need a vpn for it.
yes I have said that I would have more chances in the post as you have read it. I didnt think it was prostitutiion to pay for just being a girlfriend, and I genuinely see it the same way as a non loving relationship, because they both are is what I am saying.

thank you everyone that took time out of their day to talk to me. I hope at least someone is a bit happier. I am now going to sleep as im very tired. everyone take care.

I want to stream again but im so stuck with classees and shit.

What are you going to stream?

but I feel that hearing that stuff every day made me think that way.

Sounds like excuse. Just because you're appreciated by coomers for being slutty doesn't mean you can't be appreciated for other stuff.

oooh. yes I would like to email.

Then I'll reply sometime later. It's 22:00 here already, I still have dailies to do and I have to wake up early to work tomorrow. Maybe tomorrow or day after.

since I need a vpn for it

It's blocked in Turkey? Since when?

You cant fix me and you will lose interest quickly if you tried

imagine your mom posts a pic of her pussy right now

Ya. That would be so gross. I would never want to see that. Haha

hahahah nigga
just look through the thread, youre trying to appease a bunch of dudes
for example first you start by trying to appease short ugly incels, then some tallfags appear and you try to pander to them also but you have to do it in a way that doesnt reveal that you give them unique treatment so you just say "theres nothing wrong with being tall and i would date one!", you word it in a way where tall isnt better than short but that youre here to support all guys regardless of height, when we all know the truth.
its easy to see that youre a pickme that tries to appease all males, but when some male orbiters appear that are better you're going to be sucking them off and fucking them
thats how it usually is with pickme whores.

even though I made this thread for help

youre not trying to help, you just want more attention and orbiters