it's been 4 ye4rs since I left this pl4ce 4nd I just w4nt you 4ll to know it does get better. there's 4 whole world out there th4t will meet you with open 4rms 4s long 4s you h4ve some love in your he4rt, for both it 4nd yourself.
It's been 4 ye4rs since I left this pl4ce 4nd I just w4nt you 4ll to know it does get better...
1t d0es get better
f0r y0u n0t necessar1ly f0r every0ne
bu7 he lef7 me and 1m alone aga1n
only for fa1l3d norm13s, no plac3 for robots
If things w3r3 going to g3t b3tt3r th3y would'v3 gott3n b3tt3r by now. iv3 tri3d 3v3rything 4nd no on3 lov3s m3 4nyw4y
y0u 7hink 7here's a difference bu7 7here isn'7
y0u d0n'7 kn0w because y0u're s7ill here. i7's n07 healthy 70 surr0und y0urself wi7h miserable pe0ple. if 7his is y0ur 0nly s0cial c0n7ac7 y0u're li7erally be7ter 0ff c0mple7ely al0ne f0r a while.
1f 7h1s 1s y0ur 0nly s0c14l c0n74c7
1ts not but 1t h4s some of my bestest fr1ends
9 y3ars for m3 b3ing back is w3ird
I go7 a gf for 5 y3ars who ch3a73d on m3
I wish id n3v3r los7 my virgini7y
Bu7 im back hom3 now
no7 for everyone, no. Bu7 why no7 you?
were u crying back 7hen? u lil baby
with nam3s, fac3s? 0r t3xt b0x3s that y0u 0ccassi0nally agr33 with? it's n0t th3 sam3.
i still cry but it's n0t th3 sam3
th4nk you for coming h3r3 OP 4nd h3lping p3opl3
som3 of th3m m4y s33 th3 light
this pl4c3 is t3rribl3 for th3 m3nt4l h34lth of th3 p3opl3 posting h3r3
how3v3r, w3 typic4lly com3 b4ck h3r3 b3c4us3 w3 don't f33l w3lcom3 4nypl4c3 3ls3 4nd it's v3ry difficult to int3gr4t3 4ft3r b3ing isol4t3d for so long
I know m4ny r3pli3s will b3 bitt3r, 4nd b3r4t3 you, but you'r3 doing good by posting h3r3 4nd 3v3n som3 of th3 p3opl3 who 4r3 b3ing m34n will h4v3 d33p down b3n3fit3d from s33ing your optimism
just b3c4us3 w3 4r3 outc4sts do3sn't m34n th4t w3 h4v3 to w4llow in mis3ry for 3t3rnity
r9k w4sn't 4lw4ys so doom3r
i mi55 him no one will ever wan7 me again
H0w d0 I pr3y 0n my &qu0t;gf&qu0t;s s3lf 3st33m s0 that sh3'll actually want m3? It d03sn't h3lp that sh3's had a c0upl3 0f bfs b3f0r3.
i don7 know
well why do you s71ll p1ne af7er h1m? my gf doesn'7 7h1nk she's lovable, bu7 1 fear 7ha7 she's gonna leave me anyway
I think it'5 very imp0rtant t0 have fun here
p055ibly the m05t imp0rtant thing y0u can d0 0n Anon Babble and r9k in particular i5 t0 have fun and enc0urage 0ther5 t0 d0 the 5ame
when pe0ple make g00d thread5 that y0u want t0 take part in, there i5 n0 better place, 0n the internet, t0 be
ju5t r3ad p5ycho cyb3rn3tic5 and 5tart farming cunny
Ye5, there i5 4 whole world out there 4nd I h4ve 4 life 4nd 5till po5t on 4ch4n
I genuinely enjoy the comp4ny of the intellectu4l5 here who 4re not degener4te5
I live in the country 4nd thi5 i5 how I t4lk 4bout intere5ting thing5 with thoughtful people
It i5 4l5o my prim4ry b4ckch4nnel for 5ending me554ge5 into the he4rt of the feder4l government
You mu5t under5t4nd th4t i5 100% my intention to 5pe4k to feder4l 4gent5 4nd th4t I h4ndle their inform4nt5 in re4l life
God love5 you 4nd h45 4 pl4n for you
You h4ve to get in touch with the 4lmighty
To 5ubmit to God 4nd e5t4bli5h the pr4yer5
To m4ke 4 connection to the divine
God m4de you for 4 re45on
5o find out why
h3 lov3d m3
god hat3s m3 and plays tricks on m3
5top lying, it doe5nt, your circum5t4nce5 4re better th4n mine 4nd everyone el5e5, it5 ju5t 4 5log, 4 big 5log where youre 4ll 4lone 4nd c4nt communic4te 4nything to 4nyone ever 4nd even if you do how do you know.
it doe5nt m4tter how you look 4t it, how you cope, comp4rtment4lize, r4tion4lize, excu5e; it doe5nt m4tter it never did 4nd to 54y otherwi5e i5 to deny re4lity, 4n illu5ion cre4ted by your5elf to 5top from lo5ing it completely.
no one i5 con5ider4te, comp455ion4te or willing to be vulner4ble it5 4ll lie5, they lie, d4ting 5tr4tegie5 4nd dyn4mic5 h4ve completely been r4ped over the ye4r5 where it5 corprotized, our gene5 live5 4nd mo5t import4ntly our 5oul5 4re condemned to 5olitude through no f4ult of our own, the be5t you c4n do i5 eek out 4 mediocre exi5tence 4nd try to own 4 hou5e th4t the 5t4te will inevi4t4bly inherit when we die, to be buried in 4 5ingle plot next to 4 dozen other fool5 who did the 54me ex4ct thing when they thought they were with the right one.
we live 45 we dre4m 4lone 4non
thanks man. 1 sp3nt a lot of t1m3 h3r3, bas1cally all my t33nag3 and 3arly 20s h3r3. 1t's st1ll th3 only plac3 1'v3 3v3r b33n abl3 to talk about d3pr3ss1on, su1c1d3, b3 abl3 to mak3 jok3s about 1t and f33l l1k3 1'm und3rstood. w3 can all b3 3xtr3m3ly vuln3rabl3 and bond ov3r th1ngs w3 can n3v3r t3ll anyon3 3ls3.
but non3 of us ar3 fr13nds. you'r3 just vo1c3s. and w3'r3 not conn3ct1ng w1th 3achoth3r b3yond a f3w r3pl13s 1n a s1ngl3 thr3ad that w1ll b3 d3l3t3d 1n a f3w hours. 1t's so hollow compar3d to what's out th3r3, and 1 say that as som3on3 who has only caught gl1mps3s.
I was running this OS until I got 25 and r3aliz3d I wast3d my lif3 wallowing in s3lf pity lik3 a nigg3r
it do35nt m4tt3r how you look 4t it, how you cop3, comp4rtm3nt4liz3, r4tion4liz3, 3xcu53; it do35nt m4tt3r it n3v3r did 4nd to 54y oth3rwi53 i5 to d3ny r34lity, 4n illu5ion cr34t3d by your53lf to 5top from lo5ing it compl3t3ly.
you'r3 just suppos3d to liv3 m8, that's it, you'r3 suppos3d to bit3 th3 bull3t and b3 that p3rson that IS NOT lying
th3n you start finding p3opl3 lik3 you, sinc3r3 at h3art
if you don't cut off this bullshit it's going to g3t hard3r b3caus3 you will 3v3ntually stop, 3ith3r now or at fucking 45. b3tt3r wak3 up now
1f 1'm g3n3rally happy, go1ng out 3v3ry oth3r n1ght, mak1ng fr13nds, hav3 a job, work out, and st1ll can't f1nd a boyfr13nd, 1ts ov3r for m3. R1ght?
are you a girl? 7hen no
But I'm an ugly girl
r3f3r back 7o a7 l3as7 you'r3 going ou7 and doing s7uff. s33ms 7o m3, 3xposur3 is 7h3 mos7 impor7an7 par7
i h0p3s y0ur n0t talkin ab0ut j33-zus, 0r g33-0h-d33...
bu7 I wish I w4sn'7 doing i7 4ll 4lone 4ll 7he 7ime. I w4n7 4 h4nd 7o hold
I com3 h3r3 to tak3 a br3ak from th3 world. I hav3 to tak3 car3 of my par3nt5 go to coll3g3 full tim3, plu5 I tak3 car3 of th3 hou53 and I volunt33r.
Th3r3 i5 a big world, but 5om3tim35, I ju5t n33d a br3ak.
Al5o, did you 3v3r g3t a girlfri3nd?
k33p 4t it is 4ll i c4n s4y. i know th4t's not h3lpful, but th3r3's nothing 3ls3 you c4n do. h4v3 you tri3d 4ppro4ching guys yours3lf? d4ting 4pps?
Y3a 1/v3 tr13d both. 1 d1dn't l1k3 apps and approach1ng guys do3snt work but 1 th1nk 1m g3tt1ng b3tt3r
1'm so lon3ly though
pr0gress is pr0gress, i guess
I gu355 :/
as a wand3r3r I can att3st that th3 w0rld is a vast and g3n3rally c0ld plac3 that will mak3 y0u f33l c0mpl3t3ly insignificant. s0m3tim3s in th3 middl3 0f bumfuck n0wh3r3 y0u will b3 an 0bj3ct 0f curi0sity & sp3cial att3nti0n, which can mak3 y0u f33l g00d, but in m0st p0pulati0n c3nt3rs, p30pl3 ar3 m0r3 int3r3st3d in th3ir ph0n3 scr33ns than in s0m3 w3ird strang3r.
y34h, sorry i c4n't b3 mor3 h3lpful
Th4nk you for list3ning I f33l 4 littl3 b3tt3r. I hop3 you h4v3 4 wond3rful w33k
7h4nks, you 7oo. keep your chin up. some7imes i feel like giving up, bu7 7hen wh47 kind of life is 7h47?
Ye4 4t le4st it feels sec0nd n4ture. even when it feels p0intless i just keep pushing thr0ugh
OP, pl3a53 an5w3r my qu35tion, I want to know and mo5t importantly, how did you do it, if th3 an5w3r i5 y35.