Day 67 of deliberately reconditioning myself into homosexuality because I'm tired of women and their bullshit and...

day 67 of deliberately reconditioning myself into homosexuality because I'm tired of women and their bullshit and refuse to be celibate

the crying/regret phase is over and having sex with men is no longer viscerally upsetting at all but I'm still not actively enjoying it, it just feels like a chore

increasing my quota to a minimum of 5 guys a week, up from 3

douching is getting really fucking annoying. there's gotta be a better way

finally gathered the courage to permanently delete my porn connective I've cultivating for about 15 years

forcing myself to only watch gay porn henceforth

when I do my brain usually just kinda drifts off and I start thinking about food or women

if I start thinking of pussy I smack myself in the face really hard and force myself to focus

takes a while to get hard but I can manage if I concentrate enough

extremely emotionally numb

at this rate I suspect I will be fully and enthusiastically homosexual by 2027. the physiologists were wrong, sexuality CAN be altered.

with 1% of the effort you spent into this you could already have a girlfriend

however this is just a larp

I don't want a girlfriend. women are a meme. I want them out of my life to the furthest possible extent.

I wanna have enough money to pay fir chemical castration. I went to a doctor pnce and said I had "too much testosterone" I said I was addicted to sex and pornography and when I go for a walk, I feel anger randomly. He felt my heart, and touched my palms and noticed they indeed were sweaty (sign of high testosterone) I said I don't want kids anyways so I wanna castrate myself
He said there was still a battery of exams to check.
Thanks for nothing asshole. I don't have money to run appointmenrs with doctors and even if I do, I don't want some ass to try to change my mind. I don't want to be a rapist. I'll probably die of anger. My heart will fucking explode when i'm 50

You are extremely based, personally I would say quit the porn altogether. If you're fucking 3-5 guys a week you just need to stay horny and see them as your only release and you'll be in business

I thought maybe if I keep watching porn but change the type of porn I watch I can rewire the neural pathways I've created over time, since porn is supposedly very good at that. but you might be right, I might just need to rely more on sex than visual stimuli. idk

why would you want to be chemically castrated though? why not just find someone who is kind of a masochist and enjoys having you take their rage out on them?

I want some hypno conversion porn that actually works, something that makes you hard by showing women/femboy and mixes some decreasingly androgynous men throughout. All the videos I see using femboys/sissies/transsexuals don't work on me cuz I'm already into that

unfortunately hypnosis doesn't really work generally. change must be forced and committed to.

I don't mean actual hypnosis, I men the genre of hypno porn which is how I got into trannies in the first place

ah. be the change, I guess.

I tried this but end up giving up after I coom wtf
is this your first thread or were there others?

I just have so many questions

im so mindbroken that gay conversion is a fetish for me, but Id never do it irl

sorry for the delay, I went away thinking the thread was gonna die.
you can practice persistence by continuing to masturbate after you cum whether you feel like it or not. you'll get a boner again and be back in the mood instantly if you do this with the types of porn you normally watch. once you've done this regularly (maybe every 3rd or 4th time you jerk off) for about a month you can move on to forcing yourself to jerk off to stuff that you normally wouldn't. you'll find that the post nut clarity is significantly reduced or eliminated and you can stay in whatever headspace you want for as long as you want, orgasm or no.

I got as many answers as you have questions

why not? you should do it.

oh and this is my first thread on the subject.

I got as many answers as you have questions

ok so
you hook up with 3 random men a week for 2 months? are they always different or the same?
I think you implied in OP but do you bottom, switch roles from time to time
you have sex with normal manly looking men?
what do you look like generally speaking
how old are you

why not? you should do it.

honestly I go thru phases like gay conversion, then lesbians, then femdom
my mind is a plethora of degenerate fetishes
will there be more?

I feel tempted to post my face or nudes because I want to be hit on but I know thats really retarded lol

nudes because I want to be hit on

Just post your ass bro.

lets be honest here, you guys are only into femboys or passing trannies
youll be mad because it isnt 100% clean shaven

I'm sorry but due to multiple requests we at foidcorp are asking you to straighten yourself we will do it for you

youll be mad because it isnt 100% clean shaven

Yeah, so shave it. You don't need to be a femboy though.

can you post the gay porn you saved
did you ever listen to sissy hypno unironically?

we will do it for you

do what? im confused by this post?

day 67 of deliberately reconditioning myself into homosexuality

Why not try bambi sleep,

one time I had a dream of guys massaging me, it was really gay and I woke up with an almost came throbbing penis

you hook up with 3 random men a week for 2 months?

correct. mimimum of 3, my record for one week so far was 8.

are they always different or the same?

I think I've only fucked the same guy more than once on two or three separate occasions so far.

I think you implied in OP but do you bottom, switch roles from time to time

I just do whatever the guy in fucking wants me to do. he wants me to top, I top. he wants me to bottom, I bottom. I don't ask many questions.

you have sex with normal manly looking men?

correct. I'm trying to stay as far away from femininity in general as I can in order to avoid relapse.

what do you look like generally speaking

I'm not very attractive 2bh but that's ok because in my experiences fags are generally much, much less picky than women are. I'm slightly overweight and stand 5'10. doesn't matter at all, gay dudes really don't give a fuck.

how old are you

22

>why not? you should do it.

honestly I go thru phases like gay conversion, then lesbians, then femdom

my mind is a plethora of degenerate fetishes
you ever given into any of em?

will there be more?

likely, yes. I figured it might be a good idea to log my thoughts and feelings throughout the process so that I have a clear idea of the trajectory of things as I go along.

nah that's not retarded, you should go for it. but idk if that counts against the camwhoring rule or not so, fair warning. but I agree with , just post your ass bro

The "or" cut out when I sent this

yeah I've got shitloads of gay porn saved. no sossy hypno though, I'm staying away from femininity and am not generally concerned with subverting my own masculinity. femininity is a trigger for me so I'd rather not engage.

I have different goals in mind. I'm trying to transform myself into an androphile.

lmao based. I haven't really had any gay dreams yet. I've had a couple wet dreams, both involving women so far. not sure how to address this.

Op was built to be a boytoy but doesn't know it

oh youre saying you want to save OP?
bit too late I think lol

nah that's not retarded, you should go for it

you might not like it cuz I actually am a bit feminine lol
no ass just face but I still will regret this :/
unsee DOT cc SLASH album#baIDwTn33ZJ8

lmao based

thing is im not gay
how big your folder?

swear off girls

their first instinct is to rape you back into submission

interesting

lol I made the unsee public so idk how many of them are channer frens

No I'm not gonna save op
I'm gonna hire people to save op

>day 67 of deliberately reconditioning myself into homosexuality because I'm tired of women and their bullshit and refuse to be celibate

Thought i was the only one doing this, i wonder how many other men are doing this because women are at an all time high of being insufferable. I've already chatted up some asian guys with nice asses, I'm just hesitant because i don't want to potentially get an STD

Picrel rel

then unfortunately I may have to decline. sorry, anon(ette?)

just under 12 gigabytes. it's growing very quickly.

this just reminded me to start prep. thanks anon, you might literally be a life saver.

then unfortunately I may have to decline. sorry, anon(ette?)

are you replying to my unsee? im a guy
or the other poster?

you seem to prefer ass porn

can channer frens post in the chat :>
theres a chat there

whats your interest in it?
cant even do it yourself lol

yeah to the unsee thing. if you're quite feminine idk if I can risk it. sorry :(

mostly yeah. I also have a bunch of photos of dicks but it's mostly ass

oh lol
just my face but I look feminine in it lol

Because the population is going down while our moids look like girls and do this

unsee DOT cc SLASH album#baIDwTn33ZJ8

no posts of anyone hitting on me

its so over

first why you have that saved
also fems will all flock to chad anyway
a man can impregnate as many women as he wants

so instead of blocking gay porn threads you block straight porn? lol

mind break yourself to turn into a massive whore fag

just why?

you ever given into any of em?

I forgot to answer this but kinda
only online I have sent nudes to men before
also like 2 or 3 femdom women, so I know they exist at least

I have never ever done anything irl

very literally yes lmao

because I need physical intimacy but my disdain for women is that strong.

ah. it took a while for me to graduate from strictly online stuff to irl sex.

OP left again I think
maybe went to bed

no I'm still here, I'm just doing other stuff too

it feels like youre encouraging me to go irl with that post
oh sorry just impatient

you're good. I don't wanna make decisions for you and I especially don't expect you to adopt a regimen as rigorous as mine but if you do, sniffies is a good place to start. that's what I use for the most part.

ugh anon maybe I wanted someone to push me into it
...
damn im horny rn :<

adopt a regimen as rigorous as mine

greentext
describe it for someone like theyd do it

youtube.com/watch?v=QsLbd-xUpAY

The perspective of the dude fucking you must be an interesting one

This guy doesn't look to into this and is kinda weird overall... but his bussy is nice, so whatever.

what the hell is this supposed to be?

its possible they do know about OP's fetish and that makes it hotter for them

An Anon Babbletards attempt at summoning a succubs.

alright alright, here was my original plan. I'm not actually doing all of this stuff but this was what I initially intended to follow.

delete all your porn

watch only gay porn

watch a lot of it. drop your hobbies and spend most of your free time watching gay porn

join gay porn subreddits, follow gay porn twitter profiles, spend time on only visit the gay section of pornhub, etc

if you can get a second monitor, do that

a third is even better

floor your brain with gay sex

find a dominant homosexual who will take control of your life

give him total power over you in ways that you couldn't escape even if you wanted to

give him control over your major life decisions, daily routines, finances, health and fitness, social life, sensitive information, etc

practice self-guided hypnosis or find a dom that is well versed in hypnosis

have your dom force you to perform increasingly degrading sex acts on yourself, eventually graduating to sex with other men

have him decide who you have sex with, when and where once you're at a submissive enough stage

force yourself into exhibitionism. start streaming on Chaturbate. start uploading to Pornhub. your audience will naturally be almost exclusively male

keep this up for at least 5 years

I pussied out of like two thirds of this stuff. hypnosis didn't really turn out to be all that relevant or effective, submission and exhibitionism also is scarier in reality than it is in theory and doesn't really do anything for me. but so far it seems watching gay porn and forcing myself to fuck random dudes is enough to make significant psychological changes.

I try as hard as I can to get into an enthusiastic mindset but a lot of the time I kind of have a tough time getting into it and just end up pretending. I'm trying to train myself to actually sincerely enjoy it but that's taking a while.

how good is it to have your ass ate
did you ever eat ass?

>find a dominant homosexual who will take control of your life

guessing you didnt do this part then
Ive already posted my dick a lot of time only cuz I like attention heh

how good is it to have your ass ate

feels ok. can't imagine myself cumming from just that alone though. it's just kinda nice I guess.

did you ever eat ass?

yes. tastes like nothing. if you lick the inside of your elbow, that's what ass tastes like.

favorite sex act?
do you prefer topping or bottoming?

I almost did and backed out like 8 or 9 times. I tried to get a gay guy to blackmail me into essentially being his sex slave but all that did was terrify me. maybe someday, but definitely not starting out that way.

how many guys have you been with?
will you ever be with a feminine guy?

favorite sex act?

giving blowjobs is surprisingly fun. low effort, no preparation, quick, casual, easy. only problem is it doesn't really stimulate me physically at all so in order to build pleasurable association I jerk off while I do it. I keep going limp and powering through it anyway, I'm working on it.

do you prefer topping or bottoming?

bottoming because I don't have to worry about getting/staying hard but can still have orgasms if I really focus. much, much harder to cum that way though. it's a very different type of orgasm as well.

how many guys have you been with?

I lost count a while ago. I missed my quota twice I think. if I had to guess I'd estimate 40? 45?

will you ever be with a feminine guy?

it'll take a while to get to a point where I can feel confident enough to say yes to that so maybe in the very distant future.

would you ever consider a discord for gay conversion lol
post more ass

yeah probably. but idk if a server like that would do all that well lmao. trying to convert to faggotry seems really uncommon, no?

I would probably join, then leave, then join back again
damn I wish I could suck my own dick
can you?

last time I tried I was able to lick the tip a little bit

are you a single child
unironically i think i wouldve gone on this path if family wasnt a consideration

I want to try having sex with another man but I've heard so many horror stories of getting STD's STI's and all this other shit that I'm too pussy to actually go through with it. The fact that there's all these loops of protection you have to do all these precautions just to minimize the chance of getting something (but there's still a chance you can get it anyways) scares me too much to actually go through with even kissing another man. Maybe God does exist because he put all this bullshit in to make homos suffer as much as possible.

yep, only child raised by a single mother. you can tell I'm a fuck-up just from that lmao. why's your family stopping you?

to be fair aids is pretty easy to evade nowadays and your risk of catching it is lower now than it's ever been at any point since like the 80s.

why's your family stopping you?

idk just more of a general feeling
my brother is more successful than me and I can hear him mocking me, and my family is quite large and christian... idk

also i was playing something sorry done now
im sure if I moved out and had no family it would remove many barriers for me

my brother is more successful than me and I can hear him mocking me, and my family is quite large and christian... idk

wtf shouldn't that motivate you to do it even more??

you should be a massive faggot slut with them knowing about it 2bh. humiliate them. rub it in their faces. destroy the family name.

are you still OP
are you into the humiliation aspect of it?
and no I really really hate conflict if i was to do WAS, I would keep it a secret and pretend to be normal

are you still OP

yep, still here.

are you into the humiliation aspect of it?

not particularly. I'm just kind of joking around I guess.
I thought at first that humiliation might be helpful for reconditioning but that was the wrong conclusion to come to.

and no I really really hate conflict if i was to do WAS, I would keep it a secret and pretend to be normal

what's stopping you from keeping it a secret in your current predicament?

what's stopping you from keeping it a secret in your current predicament?

you know i actually did download grindr but it literally just didnt work?
idk man i just cant do it, not now
too much mentally blocking me

I think I posted like half the replies here, will you make a thread tomorrow?

yeah sure, I can make a daily thread I guess. it'll be nice to track my progress over time.

might go to bed soon
what do I fap to?

As a gay guy, all this was really bizarre to read.
Nevertheless hot af.
Try kratom first. It lowered my testosterone so much that now I live in post nut clarity 6 days out of 7. It enabled me to be more productive than I've ever been. I used to be a huge gooner coomer, gooning for hours a day every single day, now i do it around once a week, I've came around 4 times in the last month.
Just 2 to 3 teaspoons(2-5grams) a day is enough, don't take more due to addiction risk. But that's the sweet spot for me, and honestly it's been a heaven sent.
I will one day stop it when i don't need to be productive anymore, I'll go back to cooming and hopefully find a coomer bf to watch porn with for the rest of our lives.
Interestingly, despite being gay i only like str8 porn with lots of str8 or bi men in it, but that's a story for another day.

here, watch these:
pornhub.com/view_video.php?viewkey=6678fad6cb39f
pornhub.com/view_video.php?viewkey=ph637035cec2144
pornhub.com/view_video.php?viewkey=65082d72b638e

night anon :)

gay without trying

you're so fucking lucky, you have no idea. fuck you.

Interestingly, despite being gay i only like str8 porn

why?

need to stay on pc to use vpn but thanks
did you see my unsee? :3

here's some more then. stay a while
pornhub.com/view_video.php?viewkey=ph623389494b9d9
gayporno.fm/tim-and-leander_2467961.html
thegay.com/videos/843729/aj-play-s-the-pain-game/

I am not lucky whatsoever, I'm from a post communist shithole where everyone hates gays despite never meeting one, and the few gays that exost pretend to be str8 and marry women and are miserable in general.
I was bullied all my childhood for being "different" in ways that you don't want to imagine, it's not a suffering competition but i wouldn't wish my fate on my worst enemies.
As for str8 porn, i just like more masculine ajd friendly guys, and gay guys just tejd to have this offputting personality that i don't like, most of them are judgmental like women and i hate that.
I also hate toxic masculinity so i guess the sweet spot would be a bicurious guy for me.
But I've been with a bi guy before who dumped ke because "he realised he wants to be with a woman", so now I'm just a hermit and at most pornsexual.

You are a tranny that wants to be in a straight relationship. Man up before it'a too too late.

sorry to hear that anon. so are you gonna do the pretend-straight marriage thing or what?

Fuck no, I'm gay and i accept myself, I'll only ever be with a man. I'm also masculine but have a more pudgy body, so there's that...
I'd never troon out because i find that repulsive. I'm comfortable in my body and being a male.
I'm also okay with being alone and dying alone. Life is easier once you accept that.

honestly I'd rather put up with homophobia over women, you're still pretty lucky all things considered

incel

humiliation fetish, mainly a cuck

well if I can't get better maybe I can get worse?

actively decide to quit getting off to being cuckolded and get off to being feminized because then I'm at least an active participant in my fantasies

really awkward and forced at first but eventually my brain takes

no longer sure if I was faking any of this in the first place

terrified of sex because of sexual abuse keeping me from the easy dick I thought I'd get

want to troon but don't want to deal with cis women

Careful with this anon. I have no idea what I've mkultra'd myself into.

captcha:yayay

thanks anony
i go to bed now, for real

It's funny cause despite being str8, you've been with more men than I ever have. Idk what that says about the state of the world, kek

lol. you slipped and fell into it. I dove headfirst. we are not the same.

yeah no problem, nite anon

that is pretty funny. everything's all topsy turvy.