should i rope?
tranny boymoder
NEET
lonely friendless loser
awkward, weird, creepy, disgusting
cant have a normal conversation to save my life
doesnt go outside often, or at all
younger siblings accomplishing more in life then me. im the older sibling
It depends, are you a regular tranny or a meme transbian agp abomination
sounds like me. but thankfully I dont have siblings. Mother would mock and compare me to them.
not a transbian. if i was id wouldve already killed myself
lucky...
Sounds like me in 2015 don't worry it gets worse but dont rope thats stupid
do you like to go around with no shoes on? it's really nice, then you can go outside
Are you passing and cute?
id rather be stupid and dead then constantly suffering. you yourself said it only gets worse so whats the point continuing
what
i boymode to save others the embarrassment and disgust of looking at me.
you need a bf. Maybe he can fix you. Easier said than done, especially if you post Tomoko but you should try somehow.
Post an unsee of your face
i doubt i could be fixed.
especially if you post Tomoko
mind explaining?
no. im extremely paranoid of that thing
Why not get into art? That's what i did when i was 19, now at 27 i can draw pretty good, got my own characters that people really like and i've made money from it. That's the only thing that made me wanna keep going.
no. im extremely paranoid of that thing
Why?
Post your art anonn
if i tried to get into art id probably lose motivation a day or two in. but good for you thats good
i just am. is it stupid? yes it is i know
mind explaining?
I suppose you share similarities with her.
>tranny boymoder
>NEET
sNIFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF
that makes sense. i relate to her alot
kys
Nah sorry twitter wouldn't like that i post on Anon Babble. I'm not good at much, but i am good at art, its the only thing i can do.
that makes sense. i relate to her alot
me too. Trooning did not fix that in me.
Post discord then boymodder anon
You wont if you love art, it seems like you do
same. only made it worse i guess
why do you want my discord? even if i were to post it majority of the dms wouldnt last longer then like a hour since im a boring, annoying person and people just ghost me once they realize
i dont think that applies to me. i love many things but still lose motivation to do them majority of the time
why do you want my discord?
Why not?, how old are you though?
kys
sry i was nervous and dont know how to talk 2 ppl i thought i was being nice
it's mode, not mod, worthless esl simping shitstain
18, 19 later this year
why not?
you wouldnt want to talk to me once you realize how boring and annoying i am.
i understand
Show one of your friends' art account then.
Exactly like me, adhd and depersonalization posting tokomo on Anon Babble at 18 about how much of a loser i was and also wanting to be girly, you would've fit in better with us on the old internet, away from normies.
Does old video game ambience calm your mind and stop you thinking? it always helped me, Here you go youtube.com
i dont know that game but for whatever reason it was weirdly calming for a bit. do you have any more?
you would've fit in better with us on the old internet
really?
tranny
stopped reading. yes. in fact it's only a matter of time.
you're young af. you can fix your life and have some joy in it before turning 30. I would kill to be 18 again. I wasted my 20's on vidya and imageboards. Don't be like me.
i highly doubt it. my grades in highschool are shit so doubt i can get into a college if i tried and if i tried to get a job id be too scared to leave my house to even attend a job interview unless like im forced.
good idea
I think you have a reason to live
It's tomoko
living for tomoko?
you should look into some remote jobs. I never had a job more than 6 months bc of my autism/ADHD/depression. And anxiety around normies, those people like aliens to me. I have no idea how they do that shit until 50. Had different jobs but all of them are torture, it's unbearable. One job could make me retire at 30 but I left after few months. Still living with parents and suffer every single day.
Thief was great very hard though, Yeah loads more, I know them off by heart:
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Old internet was for the weirdo loser kids, the popular normie kids wanted nothing to do with any of this, it was great
dont i need to be really smart and stuff in something to even get remote jobs? i doubt that would work cuz im retarded
yeah that makes sense. id rather be left alone and not around popular people they just made me want to kill myself more
and thank you for these, they are really calming. i like them even though i dont know the games
please dont kill yourself, just because youre in a bad situation now doesnt mean you can improve yourself. get into a hobby. listen to new bands. find a way to live your truer self. enrich yourself, your knowledge. find a community online, then work off that to push yourself in real life. a life eventually enjoyed is worth more than a life not experienced.
i read that you wont post your art on twitter because twitter "wouldn't like that you post on Anon Babble", please abandon that mindset. post your art whereever, its an artists moral responsibility.
me and the artist person are different people
Except for not a being tranny and not being in college, pretty much me.
As the advice usually goes with anons, killing yourself is usually suboptimal. If are mentally ill and that's what is holding you back, there's help out there. If you enjoy anything or want to do something, dying might be a mild problem. Also, I hear if you mess up, it really fucking hurts.
It was worse for me before, and while it still blows now, things are getting better all the time. If you want, I can be your friend.
stuff in something to even get remote jobs?
it's way harder than lets say 15-10 years ago bc thirdies ruined the job market. But that's the only way for people like you and me. I daytrade futures but it takes years to learn and its a pretty tough business.
should i rope?
tranny
Well, yeah.
Alternatively, get your shit together and stop living in fear and continually affirming your "i'm such a hikikomori retard loser loner" identity
If you want, I can be your friend.
i doubt you'd want to be friends with me
If are mentally ill and that's what is holding you back, there's help out there
i highly doubt that would help me. i view myself as unfixable, yet i still complain about how much of a loser i am and hope to get better but i know itll never happen. its a endless cycle
get your shit together
how?
can you give some examples of easy remote jobs that i could look for?
can you give some examples of easy remote jobs that i could look for?
depends on how much you need money and would you able to tolerate normies.
how?
not falling for that shit given your other replies.
you know how to use google
this isn't a special kind of situation, plenty have been where you are
you just have to want to change, or at least want to want to change
not falling for that shit given your other replies.
fall for what? mind explaining?
i dont need alot of money, im just asking because i have no experience with jobs since ive never had one.
would you able to tolerate normies.
probably as long as i dont have to talk to them, but i feel like id be scared to be around them since itd feel like they are all staring at me and judging me because of how disgusting i am. so i dont know
everyone suffer so you should too
just change your life, just get a job, gf/bf, house
just change, bro
Go back to your Normieville.
your rationalizations of any attempt to give you advice into "that wouldn't work for me because x,y,z"
was neeting for nearly 5 years
got a job, which got me a friend
am slowly improving
is possible if you try and dare to be uncomfortable faggot
Please don't kill yourself though, you seem really cool to me I grew up with people just like you. I wish the internet hadn't been taken over by normies and you fit in online a little better. People like you made the internet great and its why I loved being on here so much.
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well make some art, writing or other, find something. or find some pursuit to follow, create your own meaning, or find some atleast. and stop that fucking "normie" mindset, youre a mature fucking person. read my earlier post with no refrence to the artist shit. im begging you to not kill yourself, things can get better and you can make them so.
i doubt you'd want to be friends with me
i don't have any friends, you seem alright from your posts
refrence
reference* fuck me
you clearly havent read my messages fully, plus some advice just doesnt help and wont fix me
thank you, you also seem really cool. thank you for more of the videos also, ill definitely listen to them especially that F.E.A.R one. not far in the video but its calming and peaceful for whatever reason.
stop that fucking "normie" mindset
mind explaining?
i doubt you'd say that once you got to know me
plus some advice just doesnt help and wont fix me
told you
nobody will fix you but you retard
again, didnt read my messages
Not everyone is (You), anon. Just because (You) could doesn't mean everyone else also can. Some of us will never have any workable solution.
" (You)
stop that fucking "normie" mindset
mind explaining?"
That "me vs them" mindset where you imagine yourself totally and utterly different than people who are not online in a way like you are. Youre imagining this utter divide based off high school cliques and stereotypes you subconsciously consume. You talk all about how "normies make me scared" and then you talk all about how "i dont go out often and barely talk to others" do you see how that is self-supporting logic? You dont even need to talk to people, its hard to, but you do need to drop the idea you are fundamentally different, because basic communication becomes impossible.
Why is the oldest sibling always mentally ill?
i've read them
but continue to adopt this attitude
it will get you very far
if you live in a first world country then yeah you can
i doubt you'd say that once you got to know me
Could be true, I don't know you. I also know trannies tend to hate themselves to an irrational extent, so I wonder if you are doing the thing. We don't have to be friends if you don't want to though.
clearly didnt read me talking to one anon about remote jobs, but okay. continue to be retarded. plus like ive said, some advice just doesnt help some people. its ignorant to think otherwise
how could i do that if ive had it all my life? any advice?
is that a stereotype or something?
itt NT normie tries to give "advice" how to fix OP's life
many such cases
what kind of things do you like?
its annoying because ive been told the same stuff over and over and it just doesnt help, yet they continue to think its the best advice in the fucking world
"> (You)
how could i do that if ive had it all my life? any advice?"
recontextualise yourself and your experiences, out with the old in with the new. the fundamental thing to realise is that the only reason you were characterised as "different" in childhood is because that allowed you to be ostracised.
thats not to say you arent, youre autistic afaiu, and youre trans. however, to develop on the earlier thought, instead of recognising that their ostracisation was because they characterised you as "different" you believed their ostracisation was because you fundamentally dont fit in with society, which is incorrect because it asserts that society is a homogeneous mass.
manga, animation, programming, drawing sometimes, denpa, video games sometimes
by the way, anon is being kinda dumb, the normalfag toughman approach doesn't work. These things like "nobody can force you to get better" are objectively true but it's not such a simple thing. You have to take it in small careful steps, celebrate your victories, and build a support structure, while again, working with the people you need to for mental care... I think.
but again as ive been claiming, mindset is half the battle, is right
what kinds of videogames and manga/animation?
i really like super long jrpgs that can get me super sucked into their worlds and help me forget real life for a bit.
You have to take it in small careful steps, celebrate your victories, and build a support structure, while again, working with the people you need to for mental care... I think.
how?
i doubt ill be able to do that instantly but ill try. ive tried to change my mindset in the past kinda but everytime i interact with a 'normie', it just confirms what i already believe even more. that im a disgusting, weird, creepy tranny. its just like a never ending cycle thats exhausting
I like Nichijou and I'm excited as hell for the CITY anime coming out in summer. Also, Made In Abyss, second favorite series (NANACHI LIVES)
Played Dream BBQ recently, I like the animator. My favorite game is Pizza Tower.
I need to play more JRPGs...
how
Ask for your insurance card from your parents, go to the hospital, ask to see psychology and psychiatry. Fucking blows almost universally and you might be on a waitlist for a while, but they are willing to prioritize people in high amounts of distress, I believe, and it is rare for it to be complete waste of time, I believe.
While you wait, if you don't have some sort of routine when it comes to your environment and health, try to build one. clean your room, brush your teeth, take a shower, eat well... it seems stupid, but these minor things can affect your mood and mental state.
As for support structures... I dunno. Would your siblings be happy to talk with you? You haven't talked much about them.
you wont be able to do it instantly, and itll have to be done with other activities (building hobbies/routines that involve to some degree talking with others and such) but it is essential.
and the idea that youre a disgusting, weird, creepy cunt is because of your own self hate. you need to value yourself higher. i dont want to assume that you have poor hygiene and health because its a bit of a stereotype but if you do then wash yourself, eat healthier, and eventually walk more - its little things that improve your self image.
again, a life eventually lived well is better than a life not lived. make friends with , theyre much better then i am at explaining shit, and i have begun to realise that ive been pretty bad because ive go little in common with you in personality. im sorry.
ive only seen 2 episodes of nichijou, but from what ive seen i like it. i like similar anime like bocchi the rock, yuru yuri, girls und panzer, etc
My favorite game is Pizza Tower.
ive never played pizza tower whats it about?
I need to play more JRPGs..
have you played any of the persona games? or any of the hyperdimension neptunia games?
if you don't have some sort of routine when it comes to your environment and health, try to build one
id like to but its hard when i have very little motivation to do anything besides laying in bed /sitting at my pc all day, sometimes playing a game for a bit if i even get the motivation to do so.
but ive been able to brush my teeth alot more recently. before i never bothered because i figured i wouldnt have made it past 18. though its only like once a week at most. i know its disgusting but yeah.
Would your siblings be happy to talk with you? You haven't talked much about them.
my younger sister hates me, or atleast it feels like it. i mean i cant blame her. i rarely talk to her but when i do its always her shitting on me for having no job and etc.
my younger brother is okay with me i think. but i think he is embarrassed to even have me as a sibling to begin with.
i have begun to realise that ive been pretty bad because ive go little in common with you in personality. im sorry.
its fine i understand. i appreciate you are giving examples instead of just "get your shit together", "go talk to someone professional". those kind of responses make me want to kill myself even more because it just doesnt work for me
its little things that improve your self image.
i shower atleast once every week, sometimes more if i have the motivation but rarely. i also dont eat that much since i only eat one meal a day, most the time just throwing it out since i dont have a appetite. i dont really know how to fix that though.