Stalking

I kinda stalked my crush nothing too absurd though just following him home after school, waking up early to run to his house so I could behind him on the way to school, taking pictures, collecting things he left behind/put in the bin. I thought he would appreciate my actions I mean nobody else had ever had a crush on him before but no instead he punched me in the face who even punches girls.. bitch.. I hope he dies seriously I had a black eye for like 5 whole weeks even so.. I still love him soooo much

I would find out what networking events she planned to go to by seeing if she posted about it or by just asking her if she planned to go and went to them as well which was easy since the industry in question in my city is small and everyone basically knows it each other. At those events we would always inevitably run into each other and have a nice convo and maybe grab lunch together (not usually 1 on 1 though) but I did genuinely network there and just do my thing, I didn't make it look like I was there to just interact with her.

After I got confident and proficient enough about her routine I decided to actually creep on her a little bit, I figured out what route she was about to take going to meet some people from a bus station and I watched from the window from a building nearby a few times. Thankfully I live in a major city with skyscrapers everywhere so unless she was an actual ninja I doubt she ever noticed my prescence, creeping on her waiting to get back to her hotel from another building etc.

Unfortunately she lived in a different town (at the time) and she only came to my city once every few weeks so I didn't get to fully creep on her but that's probably for the best. Anyways this probably sounds like way more than it actually is because in reality I only did this maybe a dozen times over almost a year although I was thinking about her all literally the time. To be honest that's what stalking is it's just mostly autistic planning and fantasizing but I was cynical so I always prioritized never ever being caught over doing obviously inorganic shit. I wanted it to be as natural as possible to see if I could make her think about me.

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do you think theres anything she could have done that turned you off while stalking her? Like if you found out she was stalking you back, would that make you like her less?

I was stalking my online friend from Anon Babble who I had a crush on. Turned out that they were stalking me as well

what did you do when she gave you mixed signals?

Well, it drove me absolutely fucking insane of course. From the beginning I believed there was no chance she was interested in me and believed she was just being polite and is like that to everyone especially since I have no romantic self esteem and she was really out of my league in everything, looks career status rich family etc. I wasn't close so I just assumed it was a nothingburger and it wasn't until our second unintentional meeting I got obsessed with her, we basically spent like half of the convention together, everything seems extremely natural we had extremely similar personalities and values and talking to her was effortless like it was on the same frequency. We had a really nice convo and realized we basically had the same upbringing and insecurities, it was like she perfectly understood me and vice versa completely in phase. She was really physically aggressive with me in a playful manner, she randomly fixed my collar out of the blue unsolicited when she first saw me the second time, randomly held my hand or grabbed me by the shoulder, lent me her coat and walked me 25 minutes to my bus station in the middle of the winter away from her hotel at midnight to see me off, it literally drove me insane everything felt like favoritism (though she was kinda playful to everyone) and some kind of romantic signal. Though I am KHV and she was like 5 years older than me (about to graduate uni vs freshman) and she positioned herself as a mentor figure so I couldn't tell if it was weird asexual sisterly energy which made doubt myself so I basically made it my mission to shoot my shot and see if she actually is sending me romantic signals and if I actually had a chance with this 10/10 angelic girl that literally seemed straight out of a cheesy romantic anime movie like suzume or silent voice as you might imagine I got really obsessed and basically made it my life's mission to find out

That's beautiful, thanks for answering. I hope you eventually find your dream girl again someday desu

yea whenever i talk to someone i can often dig up their entire life from their nickname, how they used to talk, what they used to do, etc etc

wasnt ever stalked but id love for it to happen so much, especially irl but its impossible. it would make me feel so warm

Idk if it counts as stalking, but when my foid decided to move in with me, I said no and did everything I could think of to get her out of my flat. Police, court orders, the lot. The one time the police removed her, she climbed in through a window like some shit from a horror movie at 3am.

That was 4 years ago, I just accept it now.

do you think theres anything she could have done that turned you off while stalking her? Like if you found out she was stalking you back, would that make you like her less?

If I found out she was stalking me back that would have been my greatest dream to know that she was also obsessed with me and I would have probably married her idk. It's difficult to quantify the depths to which I idealized and obsessed over her, to be honest she still feels angelic to me I'm KHV but not antisocial and I have never met anyone so in-phase with me and easy to talk to and the fact this similarity was literally instant and I'm pretty sure shared by us maybe not romantically but she definitely felt some connection with me at least as someone to guide because instantly offered to help me with everything. That was just the first time and the second time we basically spent half of a 3-day convention together talking about hopes and dreams. The most confusing was the random aggressive physical affection which was a total mindfuck for me since I was touch-starved my entire life it was such an oxytocin rush I could never imagine that a girl I barely knew wrapping her arms around my shoulder randomly while I wasn't payinf attention could make me feel so much bliss still feel insane to this day thinking about it, if they weren't romantic signals she genuinely had to be one of the weirdest females I've ever met but that was probably what it was.

yess, yes and yes

that is so hot, she is so lucky. especially when you act normal with her face-to-face, and she has no idea what you're secretly doing. im so jealous.

Interesting. Wouldn't someone with this kind of fetish want some signals that they were being stalked?

Well, you never know anon...most stalkers are pretty shit at or don't give af about being subtle but there might be a guy doing it right now...

Make any guys blush lately?

Ho...
Long time seen I've seen you moved to post. I took you for dead.

Need stalker gf that also roofies and rapes me

Did you marry them yet?

yes I am alive too pussy to actually die yet, thanks for remembering me though

just the idea of that is soooo fucking hot dont put those ideas into my head!! im too excited now....

I don't really stalk but every now and again I'll just look up people I used to know out of curiosity to see what they're up to

I once compiled a 5 page document (doesn't seem like a lot but it was formatted economically and informationally dense) on the biographical details and preferences of an egirl on twitter in order to impersonate her, in the end i did end up disturbing her enough to make her lock her account for a few months but i dont know why i did it in retrospect.

I'm e-stalking a tranny that I played dungeons and dragons with. I'm female

How much info have you found on them?

A lot. Her family threw her on the street when she was a teenager but she actually still goes to her job presenting as a man to be able to pay her bills. Her life is tragic but she is beautiful despite it.

That's sad. I'm glad she's doing well as possible. Any good research tricks that you've picked up?

i would love to be stalked by someone who was romantically obsessed with me

doesn't even have to be handsome, would marry right on the spot

I found another online game of d&d she was playing where some of the people didn't use microphones and joined it pretending to be someone else. maybe that's too direct to be counted as stalking but idk

I missed out on love so many times by not being caught.

Once a girl asked me to stalk her and I did it too well so she got scared.

Legally stalking is difficult to define. The constituent activities are all individually legal, but in the aggregation and intent become illegal.

But the bogus profiles is a good trick. Thanks!

I'm really glad that you're enjoying my posts, that makes me happy. But the pleasure's all mine...seriously, this has been really therapeutic as I haven't shared this with anyone except for a bunch of cryptic ventposts I made months back.

Wanna know how all this ended?

So I kept seeing her in events and occasionally texted her and since she was single at that time I basically asked her out like 3 times to see if she would grab coffee with me but she kept on tantalizing me with those mixed signals!!! like instead of politely declining or accepting she agreed but kept putting it off and kept treating it with a professional tone as if she's dumb and didn't know what I mean. Like should I have explictly specified to date what??? We eventually decided on an exact date but she changed it a day before and ghosted me when the next date approached which made me insane and wanna kms so I assumed it was over BUT!!!!! she randomly messaged me back 6 months after apologizing for ghosting me and agreed to see me that weekend for a coffee and obviously I was escatic and she even replied with a heart emoji after I said I would love to which made my heart melt. I don't think I was ever been that excited in my whole life you fucking bet I instantly bought my train ticket to meet up with her!!!

I showed up to the coffee shop like an hour early and when she turned up I had the biggest fucking grin in my life and waved & ran at her like a golden retriever puppy!!

Unfortunately half way into our date she dropped that she got back with her ex-bf who she broke up with around the time I first met her like a week ago and I was visibly shaken and she could tell she had to rest her hand on my to console me lmao disaster!!! Fortunately I was able to collect myself and salvage the mood and we had a good time after, we talked about warren buffet and shit. I'll cherish that day forever. But THERE'S MORE...

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What did you do so well that scared her? Could you go into more detail?

Okay so after that obviously I concluded that it was absolutely, irrevocably, irreparably over especially since I completely spilled the beans that I was interested in a romantic relationship rather than a mentor-mentee one and also the fact that she updated her long outdated Facebook pfp with a pic of her and her boyfriend which was the final nail in a very nailed coffin...I got depressed for a few weeks and kinda memoryholed that whole event and completely represeed and forgot about it so I thought that was the end of that BUT!!!

Looking back at it now after having repressed it for months I think she might actually have seen sending me signals like I was tuned out because of the sheer shock of the proxy rejection but the whole second half of the date she randomly unsolicitedly talked started talking about her relationship in a really retarded way she mentioned how they never go on dates anymore and how she's overworked from her new job and how she wants to settle down and have babies ASAP but can't since her bf can't find a job as a lawyer or something and how 'she cries herself to sleep every' night lmao.

There's no fucking way that this wasn't some kind of subtle signal asking me to seduce her I refuse to believe someone is this fucking dense and would meet up for coffee with a 20 year old who is obviously romantically obsessed there's also no way she's that socially clueless in fact she's extremely sharp socially and literally pointed out emotions that I was feeling with 100% accuracy the girl can read body language like a book I know it from her responses. I dunno if I'm delusional I mean I'm an obsessed stalker after all.

Another thing is that I'm sure she's BPD just like me but I highly suspect this because she has the exact same childhood trauma as me (narc dad, needy mentally ill mom) and I've met many a BPDemons in my life and her behavior fits exactly (high social intelligence, push-pull bullshit, sporadic ghosting, playing dumb, etc)

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That was like 6 months ago...and to top all of that off, she randomly messaged me like a month ago wishing me happy birthday. I kinda dismissed it and just responded politely with thanks so much whatever but now I'm starting to get obsessed again and doubting that it's over. She also very conveniently moved to the same city as me for her work.

To anyone especially females who managed to read my whole fucking life story am I being completely delusional??? Admittedly I am KHV so I might be clueless to how female minds work but there's no way that shit is standard foid behaviour, agreeing to meet a guy obviously interested in you whilst saying all the negative shit about her bf, randomly initiating physical contact with me again and again etc. I refuse to believe anyone is this fucking dense and clueless especially when I know in my bones that she has really really high social intelligence?

Am I being delusional?
Is she asking me to save her or something?

What are the chances that I actually come out on top in this shitshow? Obviously attraction is subjective but I'm fairly sure I completely mog him in looks and I'm most definitely willing to butt in although I dropped it after our date because I genuinely want her to be happy in the most benevolent way possible so I decided to soft ghost because I definitely can't be a good platonic friend with her and she stopped being my FP shortly after the memoryhole but looking back it's almost like she wanted me to be more pushy. I feel like I'm genuinely losing my mind.

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So fuck you to OP and that other poster and also thank you for awakening repressed memories in me, I remembered why this was so dangerous not because the feelings were painful but because they were so fucking good I know this makes me the biggest simp ever but I genuinely do not give an iota of a fuck I felt something really special with her the instant she first approached me suddenly and I could tell we basically had perfect compatibility by the second meeting, you folks have reawakened my obsession and I doubt I will desist any time soon.

What the fuck is wrong with you foids? How can you be so perfect and beautiful whilst being so tantalizing and confusing? It's almost like you people are doing it on purpose, it's like you people want to become literally crazy over you.

The final answer to how it ended is that it has not.

The best part is that I have her phone number right now...she gave it to me and and told me to message her at any time if I needed help with something like resumes or something yes of course resumes.

What do you think I should do Anon Babble? Should I message her and schedule another "professional development session"?